Well, I actually did better than I thought I would. I made it thru Jaci's 18th Birthday and only broke down once!! And that was at the gathering we had at the cemetary. Everything turned out really nice. We had made a cd of her favorite songs and played that, I made a poster board with pics of her since she was a baby up until her teen years. I handed out red roses and we laid those on her grave. I also had little picture books made with our fav pics and gave those out. We released 18 red balloons. I wanted it to be a happy time, to remember all the happy times, but I just couldn't control the emotions and did break down. I think my faith is stronger and that contributed to my strength that day.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Well, this is the week. In 2 days my baby would be 18 years old. It's hard to believe I'm old enough for that!!! We have some pretty special things planned for that day. I'm trying to turn it over to God and let him lead me through this week, as well as the ones to follow.