My beautiful daughter

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Missing you

I was on my way home from work and 2 songs from the funeral played. I'm not sure if it was you telling me it's all ok or what, but I sure do miss you when I hear those songs. I can't believe 8 years have gone by since I last saw your sweet face. I was looking at one of my favorite pictures of you-from our vacation at Terry's-and I just stared at your smile. I didn't realize the beauty you captured in that lovely face and body. I guess sometimes life just gets busy and you don't realize what you have until it's gone. I miss that sweet voice. Your smile, your eyes. Every little thing about you, even your whining and nagging. I would give anything to have those things back. Serinadee talks about you all the time. She used your Easter basket Sunday. She has a picture of you in her room. I know you would absolutely love her. She's so sassy just like you. I taught Katie how to say your name and now when she sees your picture on the refrigerator, she can say your name. I love keeping your memory alive. When Katie is older I will tell her all about you. I love you sweet baby girl and I will see you again one day.

Here we are at Easter, sure wish we had your babies with us. I love you

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Well, it's January again. 8 long years have passed since I saw your beautiful face or heard your sweet voice. I miss you so much, I never knew there was such pain in this world. I long for the day when we will meet again. The smell of your perfume.....the sound of your voice. I see signs of you and I know you are with me. Thank you for sending me those signs to help me through the difficult days. I will never forget the last time I saw you running out the front door. Or hearing your voice over the phone that fateful afternoon. I remember the shirt you had on. I remember you and Sam sitting at the computer. I wish I could turn back the clock and do that afternoon all over again. I hate that time takes away the memories. Sometimes I can't remember what my life was like "before". I wonder every day what you would be doing. You would be so in love with Serinadee and Katie. Serinadee talks about you and knows you are an angel in Heaven. She talks about going to see you one day. I know you would spoil those girls rotten and they would love you so much. I know you were so good with kids and you would be a wonderful mother. I wish I could have seen you become one. I love you MOM