Our small town has a ceremony each year where they "light up" an angel in memory of a loved one. Last night we went to the lighting (Jaci actually has 3 Angels-one from us, one from her school and one from her Granny). Here are some pics. You might not can tell, but in one, the wings on 2 angels touch and there is a gold ribbon tying them together, the other angel was a very good friend of Jaci's who died in a car wreck 9 months after Jaci. They are now together forever.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Well, we made it back from our cruise, everything was so beautiful. Got sea sick the first night, really bad.....been home 24 hours and still feel like I'm walking crooked! Guiltily, I have to say I actually went 3-4 days in a row without being sad. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I think Jaci would be ok with it that I had a good time and didn't cry once while I was gone. Now I need some time to rest before work Monday.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Today is the senior class's last pep rally (Jaci's class) I am going (hoping I can get the courage to go at least). They are showing a slide show and she is in it and they are forming a circle and singing the school song and leaving a spot open between 2 friends where she would be standing. I know I will be bawling like a baby, but I don't feel like I can miss it......please pray to give me strength.
Well I made it, had a small break down but not too bad, that's me on the far left (red shirt)by the boy in the jersey , that's Ty, he was like a brother to Jaci, they were so close. You'll also notice a space between the cheerleader and the dark haired girl in the gray shirt, that was a place for Courtney. She is in heaven with Jaci, they were very good friends, she died in a car accident 10 months after Jaci.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I am counting down the days until my husband and I leave on our cruise to Key West and Cozumel. (We leave next Monday!) But while I wanted this week to be an exciting one, counting the days, getting everything ready, it has been a very hard week for me, I am missing Jaci so much, I keep thinking about this new adventure-and think that my baby will never get to go somewhere so fun and beautiful, she never even got a chance to fly in an airplane! There were so many things she didn't get to do, get married, experience the wonderment of being pregnant and holding that precious baby in your arms. I know she would have made a wonderful mom, I can just see her up there playing with all those babies. I love you baby girl, watch over us and give me strength. I'm sure where you are is so much more beautiful than any of us can begin to imagine.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
This is my step-daughter Chelsea. She is 18, graduated from high school this past June and moved out on her own in August. I would like for you to help us pray for Chelsea. She is not doing very well right now, not making wise, adult decisions. I am afraid she is heading down the wrong path and I don't know what to do. She had plans to attend college and we were so excited and proud, but a few months before graduation, everything changed, she started skipping school, lost interest and now everything has just changed so much. She and Jaci were only about 6 weeks apart in age, but as different as night and day! I think she has a hard time with all that, they were not close and I think she regrets that now that it's too late to change it. It's been an adjustment for us all. The picture is with her dad at her high school graduation this past June.
Monday, November 2, 2009
I was looking through some pictures this morning and saw this one and just had to post it, it's such a different look than the pics I have posted of Jaci. She was a homecoming queen nominee in October 2007, although she didn't win, I think she was the most beautiful one there!! But you can see for yourself.
This is Dylan, he and Jaci are from a previous marriage. He turned 15 in July. Dylan has really been a challenge, he is ALL BOY. Seems like he's constantly getting into trouble of some sort. I do love him with all my heart and know that he hurts so much from the loss of his big sister, they were so close. He's at an age where he just doesn't open up-I try so hard to get him to talk to me, but he holds it all in. So I pray a lot for him. This picture is from last month when we went bowling. It's so nice when Dylan and his little brother get along (doesn't happen often), so I had to capture it on camera!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
I haven't talked much about the rest of my family, so I thought I'd start with my youngest. This is Jacob, he turned 9 in June. He is the only child that my husband and I have together. Jaci and my other son are from my previous marriage and I also have a step daughter. Jacob is a momma's boy! It drives my husband crazy, but I love it. Eventhough they share lots in common, such as Playstation and football, we know when it comes down to it, it's mom he wants. Jacob is a lot like his dad, they both spoil me and are always there for me. After the accident, they always made sure I wasn't alone. Jacob would worry about going to a friend's house if it meant leaving me home alone, isn't that sweet. He is such a joy, spoiled rotten!! But a joy. Here's a pic of him jammin' (he also gets that from his dad).